This is the part where I’m supposed to say something, right?
Early AM on the day when it could all hit the fan, in theory. I’ve been kind of quiet about things here recently, because I’ve been both extraordinarily busy, and also trying to process all the information I’ve been bombarded with lately. Not exac3ly an easy task, but I’ve seen worse. Hopefully, later today, I won’t see worse again.
I’ve been sitting online for most of a day that I really needed to spend doing more work on the house than I actually did, just because excessive communication is my first line of defense against anxiety. For better or worse, it’s how I cope. Plus, at a time like this, it becomes a bit difficult to process “future plans” in one’s head, because, and I freely admit that I may be overreacting here, I can’t think of a time in my life where my future, and the future of nearly all my loved ones has been this uncertain. Some who’ve endured far worse than I have up to this point would say I’m pretty lucky that this is as bad as it’s gotten, but I’m still not very well-equipped to deal with it all yet.
I try to be strong and rational, but neither has ever been my strong suit. I sit here and type this realizing that I could need a lot more energy tomorrow than I’ll have if I stay up much longer. As most of you know, sleeping’s not always my strong suit, either.
I’m not going to bother discussing the events that brought us all to this day any further. I’ve heard all the arguments and counter-arguments, seen the blame spread far and wide, and there’s really no point in debating it any further. We’re here now. We’re all in a situation where we could have to weather some really bad shit for a while. No one from the schmuck down the street to our leaders really knows what’s going to happen from here on in, and that’s got everyone on edge.
The only thing I can suggest at this point is that we all do whatever we can to help each other through all this. Some of us, possibly you and I included, are going to need it. We’re not going to accomplish anything from survival on up to thriving as people unless we stick together. I refer to the concept of “honor among thieves” a lot, and I can’t think of a better time to reinforce my belief in it and try to instill it in others than right now. Help out whoever you can within the boundaries of reason, keep an eye out for your own, and, if it’s at all possible, try to add some decent, trustworthy people to that group you call “your own”. I can’t stress all of this enough.
I’ve got to make another attempt at that “sleep” thing. For now, take care of yourselves, be careful out there (wherever “there” is for you), and try to keep a sense of humor about all this shit that’s going on. In turn, I’ll try to stimulate that sense of humor more the next time I get a chance to write here. I swear, more jokes about being triple-teamed by the Powerpuff Girls are on the horizon if I have my say.
“It’s all happening.”
-S