I was cleaning off one of my hard drives of old data that I’m not actively using at the moment, and it got me to thinking about the bands I’ve been in, and the projects I’m working on presently.

It’s incredibly sad and frustrating to me at times to think of how much potential was wasted, and is still being wasted by Murder In The Dark. I did my best, and people saw that I gave my all while I was doing so. I suppose I have to just be happy with that, but still…if you could give robots the ability and the talent in that band without any of the egos, the bullshit, and the neurosis, those robots and the person who controlled them would rule the world.

I think Get Precious could also be extremely successful, possibly even moreso than MITD, but for wildly different reasons and in wildly different ways. It’s a totally different vibe, but it benefits from that a lot. I’m honestly not sure how much I’m contributing to the band so far in the 3 months I’ve been in it (being “the guy who makes the Moog squeal like a pig and harasses the other band members”), but it is a lot of fun, and I can see great things in store for us if we keep working at it. I hope I am contributing something meaningful and exciting to the band, but it’s still a bit early for me to tell, and will probably be until we start recording as a band and really fleshing out Geoff’s vision for this thing (which is really quite excellent). This isn’t being written as some call for validation from Geoff, who I know reads this site, so Geoff, if you are reading this, don’t take it as one. I know that you and the rest of the band appreciate what I’m bringing to the table (whatever the hell it is), and I’m grateful for that.

Then there’s my solo music, which is kind of on the back burner this month, but kind of not. I can’t go into a lot of detail about everything I’m doing (There are things pending that I can’t go public with just yet, or even private, so don’t ask! It’s killing me, too, but it’s business and that’s just how it has to be!), but some of it’s very exciting to me.

The other stuff (the stuff I can talk about, which you’ve heard plenty about) is just taking time, a slow build if you will. You’ll know more about it as soon as I can tell you, and I’m hoping to put some more music online soon (as soon as everything stops spinning long enough for me to record it) and build my audience a bit more.

I’m finding that marketing my own music is kind of tough, mainly because of this silly sense of pride that I have which is getting in the way of me totally whoring it up. I see the way some artists bludgeon their audiences and potential audience with hype, even on an independent level, and I have a lot of trouble being like them, even if I know it could lead to bigger and better things for me.

I’m still looking for band members to fill out the live show (keyboards, guitar and bass; keyboardists should be familiar with drum machines and computers-feel free to contact me about this stuff), and I still need to settle on what the live show is, exactly. Being someone who creates music that can’t exactly be performed live in a lot of cases, that’s always been a tough one for me. When you go see a band that you know is a mostly-electronic thing on record, what do you like to see out of them, knowing that the chances of the backing music being pre-recorded are relatively high? Just some things I’m thinking about presently, as I try to actually bring “The Scott Crawford Show” to people, finally, after making you all wait so long for it.

There are a few other things I’ve got in the works with other people (again, can’t quite talk about them yet because they’re not done deals), but those could be good, too. Definitely different for me, too. We’ll see how those pan out. It’s weird to me that I’m suddenly so busy on all these projects, given that I spent so much time spinning my wheels. I guess I’m making up for lost time, but it’s also fascinating to me that people have afforded me the benefit of the doubt that I know what I’m doing. Maybe I do. =)

Please, for the love of God, no.

WALL OF HUCKJAM: TEH MOTION PICTURE.

You’d think that after all the time I’ve spent with the imagery, I’d be immune to any of the components of the Wall Of Huckjam 4.0. This is totally not the case. I sat here alone in my room, at 7:30 in the morning, looking at it and laughing out loud because it still totally slays me that we live on a planet where this sort of thing is allowed to happen.

Wall Of Huckjam 5.0 may be here sooner than you think. Fear.

Beware. It lives.

WARNING: The Wall Of Huckjam 4.0 does not format properly on My Big, Black Cock. To see it in all its splendor, go here. What you’ll see behind the cut on My Big, Black Cock is more like the Three Mile Island Of Huckjam.
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The New England Patriots can eat a big bowl of dicks. That is all.

…this news item recently, it’s actually a guy my mom knew. Small world, no? Hell of a way to go. Not quite like this though.

It would seem to me that the relative ineffectiveness of all left-wing activism as compared to right-wing activism boils down to one factor: the left-wingers aren’t acting out of blind faith, devotion and fear of an all-powerful being who will condemn them to hell if they don’t do His will.

I have a solution to this problem: I will be that all-powerful being! Do my will, left-wingers, or I’m sending you all to Hell! Fucking dirtbags. You can start by getting me some pah! And sit on my lap! NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We’ll worry about the political stuff later. I want to see if this first test of your loyalty pans out.

Please be my girlfriend.

Love,
Scott

If you could, make mention of one political issue, either in your own neighborhood or a big, global one or somewhere in between, that you have really strong feelings about, something you’d actually like to be able to make a difference on. No restrictions here based on ideology or whatnot. I just want to know what causes are most important to the people who read what I write.

I’m ready to go the fuck back to bed. Who’s with me?

The temperature where I live has dropped 29 degrees in 7 hours. During the day. That’s gotta be some kind of record. Jesus.

…what the fuck my deal is with talking about setting people on fire all the time lately? I mean, God forbid someone actually does start setting people on fire around here, there’s gonna be SWAT teams on my ass. It will not be good. I’ve never done it, either! Well, aside from that one time, but I did no real damage, plus they accepted my apology for that and never pressed charges!

THESE ARE JOKES, PEOPLE.

(I think.)

Seriously, though, why is my first instinct any time someone does something bad to me or someone else to think “I/they should set them on fire” of late? It’s kinda weird. Looks like a horrible thing to experience, too. Weird.